Sunday, February 26, 2012

Conflicting Emotions

Have you ever done something you didn't necessarily want to do, but felt the Lord telling you to do it. Completely an act of obedience, yet still trying to hold onto some control of it? We are attempting to sell our home. Last year, didn't really think it was an option or a need. This year, felt the Lord telling us we needed to put it up for sale. Don't know at this point if He just wanted to see if we would do it, or He really wants us to move. That's the waiting part, that's the hard part. I'm trying to detach myself from this home and think of all the things I don't like about it. Just when I think I'd be thrilled to move on, that little voice inside tells me that I will actually be heart broken to leave this home.
Which brings me to the point of this post. We are holding an open house at this very moment and several people have come through that absolutely love my home. Makes me wonder(and them) why I want to leave it. One lady just said she can feel love in this home and she didn't want to leave. WOW, someone else may soon be loving my home the way I thought I always would. Am I really ready and willing to let that happen? To be honest, I just don't know. Many conflicting emotions, many tears...but in the end, obedience will win. Faith will prevail...He didn't bring us this far to let us go and He knows exactly where He wants us. Our home is where our family is and when we are together we will fill any space with love and warmth.